tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6877731088554997649.post7214922786829384325..comments2024-03-22T17:39:44.420-07:00Comments on 37th Dream/ Rumors of Peace at Sunrise Sunrise Sunrise Sunrise Sunrise Sunrise Sunrise: Delayed reactions / Coincidence?/ "Tug on anything at all.."amhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09212213177713917828noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6877731088554997649.post-61044147766442365172011-10-11T19:18:30.542-07:002011-10-11T19:18:30.542-07:00Taradharma: Because I remember being 2 years old...Taradharma: Because I remember being 2 years old, it always astounds me when adults seem to think that small children aren't observing what is going on. It is good to hear that your niece as a small child was listened to by her mother when she protested, and that the ignorance of the father and his girlfriend was addressed by CPS.<br /><br />bev -- Thank you for telling your story of early memories and repercussions. I would not have guessed that you were once severely agoraphobic, but I can see now how important to your sense of well-being it was to sell your place in Ontario and travel to Arizona after Don died and to buy the new/old house in Nova Scotia and to be out traveling extensively with Sabrina and Sage. I see you as a woman with a good balance between being a home-loving person and an enthusiastic and appreciate traveler. <br /><br />Interesting about the nausea. I wonder if our earliest comprehended language might be that of body sensations. Our bodies give us messages before we even have the words to let us think that something is not quite right and needs our attention.amhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09212213177713917828noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6877731088554997649.post-31379524979600213602011-10-10T10:40:38.817-07:002011-10-10T10:40:38.817-07:00I believe that old memories manifest themselves in...I believe that old memories manifest themselves in unexoected ways at a later date. When I was about 5 or 6, the ooder brothers of one of my friends locked me in a closet while I was at her birthday party. It was dark and I was afraid. I am nit sure how long I was in the closet, but the mother eventually released me. A few years later, when I was going through sme stress as a teenager, I became severely agoraphobic. The only circumstance under which I could leave the house and venture forth was after dark in the company of my German Shepherd. That went on for several years and I eventually had to droo out of school as I was unable to complete all of my studies at home. I was given biofeedback training in the kate 1960s, at a time when that therapy was still considered fairky new and exoerimental. It did help and I have occasionally used it when I am in a situation that stresses me greatly - such as being in an airplane. The thing that really seemed to help me conquer the agoraphobia was my relationship with Don. Within months, I was doing things that had been impossible before. However, there were a few situations which I did not really conquer. When I studied for my M.A., I would walk the stairs to a 22nd floor classroom rather than take the always crowded elevators.<br />When Don died, I was afraid that the agoraphobia would return as I could feel twinges of it each time I had to take him for chemo and other hospitalizations. Oart of the reason that I set out for Arizona the first winter after Don's death was that I knew I had to fight back and lay claim to my freedom or I might welk succumb to the agoraphobia. Even now, when the stresses of my solitary life seem to become too much, I can feel the familiar sensations of agoraphobia creeping out from under the rock where they seem to hide. Oddly, it manifests itself as nausea. Anyhow, all this to say that I strongky suspect that the closet incident was the trigger that set years of traumatic pain into emotion for me. So strange to think that such a small blip on such a large timeline could have such lasting repercussions, isn't it?bevhttp://magickcanoe.com/blog14noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6877731088554997649.post-55985757196130493622011-10-10T10:10:11.790-07:002011-10-10T10:10:11.790-07:00love the JM quote, it is so true.
when one of my ...love the JM quote, it is so true.<br /><br />when one of my nieces was just 3 years old, her father, who was then divorce from her mother, was taking showers with her AND his current girlfriend. This tiny child did not like it and told her mother so. He was investigated by CPS and told to stop. How can adults be so clueless as to the sovereignty of a small child?<br /><br />Even if that man did not molest you (and perhaps you'll never know) it sounds as if it was an uncomfortable situation to be naked in front of a man -- children feel so vulnerable anyway, and your sense of privacy was taken from you. This is a trauma. No wonder you were angry.Taradharmahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17665801586196931603noreply@blogger.com